At a stand-still

Hi. I don't know what to do anymore. I know I haven't visited this blog for a long time, but I just have to "tell someone". I'm really on a tight spot right now.

OPTION1: Do what you've always wanted to do

OPTIOn 2: Take a hint and stop.

Looking at that plainly, everything seems like a no-brainer. Of course, it only emphasizes how the two options don't say anything at all. First, it doesn't say that it's embarrassing to try doing option1 it alone simply because the tasks that may follow requires epic manpower. It's FOOLISH to pursue without that available. Second, TIME would soon be a limited resource that needs to be abundant. Third, I am, as a friend said (but not to me, i think), a "weak little bitch". Afraid to go on things unsupported.

GOD what are you saying.

I need this opportunity for a guided taste of life.

This is something I want to do.